i used to anticipate birthdays, with my birthday week crammed with all the celebrations with all my different groups of friends.

but now this ain't the case. i view growing a year older with mixed feelings. i wish there were beautiful memories to remember each birthday by, but frankly, i cant really remember. i wish there will be special plans and surprises, but really, i think i would be too tired to enjoy them. i wish i could have a day to myself, but i fear i don't want time alone when i get it.

people don't ask what my birthday wish is, they ask me what birthday present i want. truth is, i don't know the answer to both.

(seems like a sad post ya? but it isn't) just slightly stressed for the tests=)